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We couldn’t wait to carve our pumpkins, which means we’ll get to do more as Halloween approaches. Cedar wanted me to carve him a kind-hearted face on his (first one below) and I decided to trace and carve an owl design onto mine. Perhaps next time I’ll be brave enough to do my own drawing.


I told my husband how healing carving these pumpkins felt. There was something about the rhythm and moving of my hands and the anticipation of sculpting and what may come to be. I found myself in a bit of a trance and I realized how much I need to create. How important it is for my soul. And of course I know this down deep about myself but my consciousness has been elsewhere. I need to work with my hands. It quiets my mind. It hushes the noise.
Something is opening up for me. I am remembering. Remembering what fills me up. Walking every day in the forest. Working with my hands. These discoveries are happening organically and not forced. I knew the quiet would bring me back and open up what it is that feels good to me without all of the distractions I have kept around me for so long.
And our sweet Cedar and all we are learning about his sensory needs. Its like he is a mirror to our own and this awareness has been intense but also so validating. My boys and I are three kindred spirits under one roof. We are deep in the midst of sorting out each of our needs and how we can each feel heard, honored and loved and create peace in a loud-like world.
All this from carving pumpkins. Pumpkin therapy. : )















October 16, 2012
Love Love Love. I so resonate with this. Working and creating with your hands is so soul nourishing. There is no other feeling like creating something beautiful from the work of your own hands and imagination. Hope you are having a blessed week.
October 17, 2012
Beautiful photos of one of our favorite fall rituals, too. Think I’ll take a cue from you and stop spending so much “free” time reading about others’ creative living (though your blog has been a lovey distraction, so no mean-spiritedness meant through my comment). But ’tis time to go offline and rediscover the things that fill me up. Already deactivated that terribly addictive FB, now time to let blog hopping wane as well. Best to you!
October 17, 2012
this is beautiful…..the pictures……the pumpkin therapy……how you are finding yourself again……the way you all are kindred spirits under one roof. you are such a beautiful soul and i love coming to this special, magical place you have created. i have been following your blog for years now and i don’t always leave comments…..you often leave me speechless with your words. i just wanted to share that i have spent the last six months pulling away from my blog…..only posting here and there…..and just remembered yesterday how much i enjoy blogging…..and how much fun i have creating posts……and joining in on swaps and blog parties. what i realized was that my blog IS one my creative outlets……and the swaps that i participate in and the blog parties……they provide a time to use my hands too! so i am going to be getting back to my blog…..and using it as my creative outlet. i’m not as good as many of my favorite bloggers…..but that part doesn’t matter to me……it’s the process that matters to me…..what i get out of it……and if others read it and like it then that is just icing on the cake! thank you denise for being one of those bloggers that i admire……our blogs are very different…..but reading your blog encouraged me to start my own two years ago…..thank you for being you.
October 17, 2012
brought tears to my eyes. beautifully said. what a journey! xoxo
October 17, 2012
We’ve been carving pumpkins too. It’s such a fun activity. My baby is 19 and she loves holidays because of these sorts of things. We’ll probably go to a corn maze and pumpkin patch too.
October 17, 2012
Seeing your posts so real, raw, honest has prompted me to start working on my own blog. As a very introverted shy person this has proven difficult for me and I would like to thank you! As a thank you I would like to make you a gift! Would you please trace Cedars’ hand onto a piece of paper (binder paper, paperbag ,scrap paper it doesn’t matter what kind of paper) and mail it to: Jennifer Jepsen 691 Spruce St.Apt 2 Half Moon Bay, Ca 94019. Thank you! jennwhite421@yahoo.com
October 17, 2012
Oh my lord – Cedar’s wild curls. They get me every time
Visiting the pumpkin patch continues to be a magical experience for me, even as an adult. What a wonderful way to spend your day together!
October 17, 2012
i’ve been thinking about your wanting to take all of the pumpkins home, because they all should feel chosen. i love that heart. and that desire to bring life and joy and peace to things around you. I love that in the quiet of working with your hands. and on your walks you are being chosen. by the trees, and the quiet, and the mist and the space. you settling into, resting into YOUR chosenness is tuning others ears to the same callings.
love you!
October 18, 2012
beautiful words & lessons Denise and incredibly beautiful photos. thank you ! xos
October 19, 2012
Such a beautiful post! Our little family lives in Sydney, Australia, and we’ve been celebrating the festivals of the Wheel of the Year for years now, in harmony with our southern hemisphere seasons … but Halloween is one of the festies that we always celebrate during the northern autumn (our spring). We adore it! Pumpkin carving, candy exchange, decorating our home … it wasn’t a widely spread ritual while we were growing up here, but it’s becoming more and more popular. It’s gorgeous!
October 19, 2012
I had that same revelation washing the car, of all things! We were visiting my relatives for a weekend and I had to stay behind when the others went to the beach because the baby was taking a nap. I had a sudden flash of inspiration to wash our filthy car and borrowed a rag to do it with. I was astonished at how pleasant it was to be outdoors, working with my hands. It really did quiet my mind. The problem is, I live in New York City. Such opportunities are rare.
October 20, 2012
Oh how lovely written again. This experience really reminds me of the pumpkin picking I did with my babysitting kids. How fun that was to decorate it… <3
Thanks for sharing and have a wonderfull fall weekend!
Love&Peace, Betty
October 29, 2012
I love these photos so much! What a gorgeous life you have